Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Missing My Dad

Nine years.

Has it really been that long?

Nine years ago, I was an 18-year-old high school senior about to graduate.

And one night, my dad was gone. Just like that. No warning signs. Nothing.

He had a heart attack, and he didn't survive.

My world has not been the same since the very moment I found out. My life is not complete. My dad was not at my wedding last May. He did not have the opportunity to throw back some beers with my husband. He won't get to meet his grand-baby this fall.

But time does help. Life is not the same without him, and I still see or hear things that immediately make me want to tell him. And that hurts. But every day life isn't painful. I enjoy it, and I know he would want me to.

I've heard my entire life that I am his lookalike. That is something I can hold on to forever, and I appreciate that.






March 4th will always be a tough day for me. His birthday would be on March 6th, too. Basically, this whole week just sucks every year. Time does help, but it's never, ever fun. 


    

10 comments:

  1. Sending lots of love your way! I lost my Mom 3 1/2 years ago and I wish it got easier. Hugs my friend!

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  2. Hugs! There is nothing like bond between a daddy and daughter. He would be so very proud of you and all that you've accomplished!

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  3. I'm so sorry for your loss. They say that time heals the pain but I don't think so. Praying for you!

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  4. I can't handle this post! God bless you! I pray it gets easier.

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  5. I'm so sorry. My husband lost his dad to a heart attack as well.

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  6. Girl I feel you! My dad passed away 7ish years ago. I say ish because it will be 8 in July. Time does not heal all so I agree with the comment above! I just got married this past weekend and I missed my dad dearly at the wedding! You have some great pictures though to keep as memories!

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  7. I bet he is looking down on you and just so damn proud of ya! hugs to you, and the photos are adorable!

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  8. Sending tons of love your way during this hard week!

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  9. Sending some love my friend. I pray that you find comfort in remembering the time and lessons you had from him. He would be so proud of all that you have done in the last 9 years.

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  10. Hugs to you! I know he's looking down and is so proud!

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